CW: I havn't weighed myself cos im on a fast but i think its around 50kg
How do you feel about your weight?: i feel it controlls everything.. my mood my life my relationships!
Why do you want to lose?: Because i want my life to not be so shit!
Why do you fear gaining?: cos everyone around me, treats me like shit if i gain...
Were you abused as a child?: yes
Do you feel neglected?: i jus kno ppl cudnt guv a shit my family my friends etc
What do you want most out of life?: to be happy, and not hav this disease control me
What do you wish you had more than anything?: i wish i felt loved, i wish i was loved and cared for by the ppl around me, theyv seen me emaciated and they did give a rats ass!
This or That?
black or white: white, looks better on my skin
night or day: twilight
earth or air: earth
fire or water: fire
light or dark: dark
happy or sad: happy
love or lust: love
silver or gold: gold
hot or cold: hawt
perfection or happiness?: happiness
life or death: life
Drink: diet coke or juice altho i hav 2 stick 2 water :(
Feeling: close to someone
Day of the week: saturday
More About Ana
Is Ana your friend? Or is Mia? Or both of them?: i hate them both ana has taken over my body and mia fucked me up in general!
How many calories do you consume a day?: i try 2 stick 2 none, im either fasting or........ binging.. i dnt hav the control to restrict
How often do you feel faint?: everyday
How often do you black out?: every few weeks
Do you even care about yourself anymore?: yea i do, but i dnt really care about my health jus my happiness
Why are you doing this?:i have to
What do you want this to accomplish?: i want to be the one who doesnt die from this!
What if it doesn't work?: then ill die, i have to keep trying untill the end
Are you willing to risk your life?: yes
Do you think you have a problem?: yes
Do others know about it?: yes to an extent but its fair obvious if ur a close enuf friend who cares, most of em dnt tho
Are you guilty at all about it?: i feel bad tht iv got 2 the point where lying is normal for me, i dnt even see when im doing it!
What do you regret?: letting ana take myself over
How long can you go without eating?: 30 days is the longest iv been
How long have you been doing this?: 6 years
How long do you plan on doing it?: till im pregnant and then ill start over.
Does anything else matter?: of course im doing this for everyone, sounds weird but yea
Are you suicidal?: only when things get 2 much 2 bare and i dnt mean if i gain 2 kilos i mean when EVERYTHING get 2 rock bottom
Do you care?: i always care
Are you lonely?: yeah.
Are you trapped?: omg yes